Monday: April 5th, 2010.

I had the dream again, the dream where i'm finally allowed to have a baby, the 9 months go by so fast, but in them, i am doing my favirote old hobbies, like painting, and riding my bike. Then i am in the emergency room, having my baby, it hurts, but the pain is so worth it, my baby is finally born, and after waiting for the doctor to bring me my baby, my stomach fills with butterflies, and im filled with joy, but right before the doctor hands me my beautiful baby girl, i wake up. This is the 17th time ive had this dream, but every time its a little diffrent. In my dream, i look the same, small, older then most, blue eyes, blonde hair, and a small nose. I wake up, and my husband is gone. I never see him anymore, and im reminded of it every morning.